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so hi it's been like half a year since my last journal
uhhh I've been feeling kinda mediocre about my art with little motivation for improvement despite that it's prolly the only hope for my career besides writing.
which I also feel kinda mediocre about.
I'm feeling like I'll get out of college in a year and a half and have nothing at all remarkable to show for it. it's kind of terrifying.
As far as I've been able to discern, a college education doesn't even seem all that important in most of the fields I'd be interested in, but what is important is talent and distinction and where I hoped college would get me that, it hasn't, and I'm 22 and don't feel like I have it annnnd don't know where I'm going to go in life without it.
it doesn't help that I see people younger than me, even still in high school, who are already talented enough that by the time they get to this point in life they could fuck college and get their dream art career if they wanted, even if that was just freelancing and living off commissions.
and I see people my age who are already there.
hmmmmn I think I spent all my rambling for now actually.
So anyways. I've just been immersing myself in various hobbies that aren't drawing basically. Lots of video games and roleplay, but not as much of the good, excellent-writing-practice roleplay as I used to pack my nights full of. I miss that a lot. Hmm and some cosplay stuff I should upload. Heck yeah. I've really been upping my cosplay game, guys. I'm pretty proud of that at least.